Showing posts with label Emotions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Emotions. Show all posts

Sunday, December 13, 2015

PART I - Where am I ??!!

Where am I?? A question that the Maya kept asking every 2 hours...

After so much of struggle and having come to big city, Ravi wanted to make it big. A dedicated employee and had been a fast tracker all his life. If one had to look at his resume one would be stunned by the kind of growth and roles he had performed. He had always felt good about his growth and spoke about it often. He had been married for the last 10 years to Maya and have two wonderful kids both school going. With his hard earned money he had brought a villa at one of the posh and leading builders on the Old Mahabalipuram Road. The villa was slightly on the higher end but he could not resist his temptation to buy it. It very important as both Ravi & Maya as they loved to host small parties and to have a good social life this villa was perfect and idealistically located. He had taken a loan on 80% of the property cost and has been paying EMI religiously for the last 4 years. He was eagerly waiting to pay up the EMI. As time moved on he brought a BMW X3, which was now one year old was his darling. Well life was good and their other plans were building on. As the year end neared his plans for the much awaited family foreign trip was on. December was the month of holidays that this family of 4 eagerly awaited for.

It was 1st Dec'15 when the rain pour had started very early, rather it had started pouring on through out the night and early morning saw no stoppage. Well it was a big day at office for Ravi as he had some major deals to be finalised and was eagerly awaiting for its closure. He had rushed off to office by 8 am, inspite of Maya's insistence not to go. She was not feeling too good because of the rains and also wanted Ravi to stay and work from home. Well his X3 had ensured him reach office in luxury and quicker. It seemed to be a bad day for Ravi, the deal results were not out and the final results were getting postponed by another week. He was furious and was becoming impatient like the rains outside, which was pouring without a comma or full stop. It had been pouring continuously for the last 12 hours now. To distract himself he had poured himself into the activities and plans that he had kept aside. He had noticed that most of his colleagues had not come to office. He did not bother to call them, rather was more happy in the work he was into. It was 2 pm and he felt hunger pangs. He had not bother to look at his cell phone which was on the silent mode. As he got up he realised that there were 6 missed calls from his wife. He had ignored all her calls. As he called her back, he could hear a feeling of anguish and scare. Maya again insisted for him to come back as it was pouring outside. He said that he would leave in a while and be home and not to be worried. He did not check on the rains post that.

Finally at around 5.00 pm he left his cabin and headed to the car parking, as he found the office to be rather empty and everyone was running away. That was the point he realised what a mess it was outside. It was dark and rain was pounding earth as if the heavens have opened up with anger and frustration. He hurriedly made his way to the parking lot in the basement. There was 1/2 feet of water there. He cursed the admin folks for not having pushed the builder to make better water draining arrangements. He got into the comfort of the car and played the music as the engine came to life. As he got out of the office parking he was invited by table tennis ball size water droplets hitting his windshield and the intensity of this was real high. His wiper blades had come to life the very instance and were running a 100 mtr sprint on the windshield. As he got out of the office and took the left onto the main road, he found that his car was wading through 2ft water. He remembered to make a quick call to Maya and tell her that he had started. She rattled out that the roads were bad and he should hurry. He cut the call and tried had to focus on the road. At Sholinganallur as junction he pushed his car 3 ft water and he could here the engine struggle as his car exhaust was trying hard not to let the water come in. Ravi kept pushing the accelerator on a rated flooded free road. At last after having come to the Junction close to Sathybhama college he took the right to get closer to his home. House was hardly another 3 kms. He found a no water patch and was glad that now he would reach home soon. No sooner had he finished his thought he saw that he was facing a sea in front of him. He was wondering what happened to the road...

He now on his mental map and GPS that showed him the road. Having pushed his car for another 300 mts, he realised that he could not feel the road. His cell phone rang and he knew it was Maya. He put his car speaker on. Even before Maya could say anything, Ravi started asking about his kids and what she is planning for dinner. He did not want the surrounding impact him in anyway. Now he was more determined to reach home, and he never wanted Maya to feel panicked at this point of time. He said to her that he will be there in another 15 mins and cut the call...

To be continued.....

Sunday, May 03, 2015

Kindle of Love

I kindle the love for self,
Far away from the current state.
Deep far away into the wilderness,
off from this crowded madness.

Shedding of the shackles,
that have tied me down to these nothingness.
Ever flowing in a pristine state
tendering the valley with Compassion

Spreading the sheer joy with selfless succour,
Competing with nothing but winning everything.
With a sole destiny,
to meet with the big ocean down the valley.



Saturday, July 26, 2014

Let me be!!!

What seems small for you...
It could mean the world to me.

What you call insignificant..
It could mean very valuable.

What you may not care for..
I could die if, I did not preserve it.

What makes you happy..
could make me wonder why!!

What you chase..
It could never be mine.

We may have shared a path
but, my destiny is mine!!

You have loved your path and life..
Trust me, so do I for the path I chose in this life of mine!!!

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Feel me Rise!!!


My mind runs amok,
like the wild horse without any reins.

It keeps seeking for the new horizons,
without any fear or guilt of loss.

Trying always to set me free and make me soar high,
like an eagle in the clear blue sky.

For my soul seeks no boundaries
breaking all the shackles of my fear.

Wanting to burn a lamp in the windy meadows,
yearning every bit to brighten my day.

With all my energy that i could share,
Oh! my friend feel me rise, with every breath that I take.

Wednesday, February 05, 2014

एक वादा खुदसे

ठहरा रहा उम्मीद से
की सुनेगा कोई ॥
पर इन लब्ज़ों की तन्हाई मैं
आया ना कोई ॥

मैं अपनी परछाई को
दोस्ती का वास्ता दे बैठा ॥
उन्हें छोड़ चला राहों में
जो हाथ पसारे खड़े थे,
उन चौराहे और गलियरों  में ॥

सायद न था कभी
अपने पे भरोसा ॥
जो यारों पे ना कर सका
उनके वादों कि सचाई का आस्था ॥

रह न जाऊं उन्ही पल्लों में
उस परछाई कि आड़ में॥
आशा कि उम्मीद है
थामूंगा आपने यारों कि हातों को ॥

यह वादा रहा खुद से
ढूंढूंगा अपने वजूद को ॥
पहचानूँगा अपने आपको
पर फिरसे कभी न खोउंगा अपपने आप को
किसी सन्नाटे वाली मोड़ पे ॥  

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Laughter of Hope!!!

The clouds are so grey and deep
My sunshine finds it very difficult to peep
the winds that fly so hard and fast
seems to be the only hope for my time to pass

The surrounding around me deepen to black
Leaving me struggling to come back
for my life beyond is also searching for a union
but the time that flies, pushes me in my deep grey
But as I push to peep again, i gain my strength

with every gold bursting in the sky through those grey
the union with below shines to glow...
with a tear of joy and a laughter of hope!!!



Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Death & Beauty!!!

"Death & Beauty!!!"...

what the heck!! this cannot be true... but I strongly feel nature bring in all together and it is for you to enjoy...

I just fell in love with this broken tree which may have been lying there for past many years and still had an amazing pull...

I could not help but shoot it.. :)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Singh is King!!!

In what all way, you could be embarrassed...

Last month when we were travelling back from Indore to Chennai, we were at the Airport, I was trying to keep my son busy; showing him the conveyor belt... We were having fun and enjoying the movement of the bags and other packs on the conveyor belt... just when i thought he was enjoying and having fun, i heard him sing, "Singh is King, Sing is King" and stop abruptly!!!!

I was zapped, turned around only to find a 'Sardar' security guy walk past us...

I did not know what to do and where do i hide my face!!! while my amazing son, was back at looking at the bags and the conveyor belt moving...

God bless, I think the gentleman did not hear my son sing his praise and my embarrassing flushed face look...

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Happyness!!

His smile said it all… It was so catchy that my eyes could not move away from that twinkle in his eye… He could not move himself, could not convey his thoughts, could not even utter a word but his smile said a million of words. He was one of those amazing kids, who were challenged from the day they were born. Palani, lying in his bed on the floor, shared with four other kids was just smiling. He only other thing that he could do was to lift his arms and say, “hug me”.


I stood still as if time has stopped for me, not knowing what to do, holding back my tears, as the supervisor of the “Little Hearts Specialty school” kept telling us what all happens in the day. These kids were in this world not knowing whether they would live another day. They do not even know when they are hungry, what they need to eat. Today they may seem so nice, in their best way possible, tomorrow with the new day, who knows what state they would be in.


Thoughts kept coming, how does he talk? Must be frustrating when not able to communicate what he wants. Does he know what dreams are? How does the world look outside? What are the different colours in this world? And so many more…


We always keep comparing how sad we are, how not so good we are to do in this world. How much short of money we are in… Our limbs are intact but we still complain of an easy mode of transport even for a shorter distance. I am sure a lot of us can argue saying otherwise. But, reality is, “How may of us are happy in the state of affairs we are in?!”


If Palani can still smile in his irreversible pain why can’t we love the live we are in??