Living in the moment

It was a day like any other day filled with learning & laughter & anguish & questions & answers & no answers & ...

The day was unusually warm and humid which added to the tribulations going on in my mind with the thoughts in my mind. While all that was going on, the sky had its share of clouds floating around for the sun to play hide and seek with it. It seemed to be keeping pace with my mind.

As I walked down the quite road back to my resort, I aimlessly decided to head towards the sea and witness the beautiful sun go down the sea while playing with the clouds.  I walked up to the beach aimlessly and sat down at a spot with a 'thud'... I let my legs spread in front of me with my back arched forward and hands playing on the soft sand of Cherai. I let my mind wander on the day with eyes looking at the sun settling its business for the day with the sea.. I stared at the sun and then at the sea as the sun rays shimmered over it.

The glare was strong for me to move my focus from the water bed to that of the little boy playing with the waves in front of me. He would jump at the waves coming towards him and then chase it back into the sea as the waves receded... Run back again as the new waves would touch his feet. He was doing that with laughter and freedom, not being bothered about anything but the waves, which seemed to keep pace with the boy's laughter and run up & down the beach...

After the boy left the beach, I was all alone in my world looking at the last few rays that were split across the sky by the clouds. The sun was not in its full form but its beauty was printed on the sky like the little boy playing with his new friend and learning the art of being in the moment...

As I got up to leave the beautiful Cherai beach with the sun having gone down leaving space for the moon to spread its wings of calmness on the vast sea, the Ocean said to me..

इस लम्हे में रहो और ऐश करो', 

खुद से सवाल मत कर.. 

ज़िन्दगी इन्ही लम्हो से बनती है ,

इसी में खुशियां है, जो तुझी में है 

(Enjoy the moment that you are in, Stop questioning yourself. Life is made of these moments.. Live in its happiness for you have it in YOU!!)

Samadhi or Out??

Samadhi or Out??

I was zoned out for few seconds not sure how and what to react to that statement before I moved on. It got me wondering was that a statement or a word.. It was such a powerful one that it shook me and let me spin in multiple dimensions, more so what choices life can show us and how simple they are...

Well this happened to be the 1st of January of this wonderful year and I was at the Pondicherry Mother's ashram for the new year meditation. I have so far managed to be there for the last three years. Though the meditation starts at 6 am, we typically arrive there by 5.20 am to get a seat near "Mother's Samadhi". This year was no different and managed to sit near that beautiful samadhi space. There is always a tranquil atmosphere and you could transcend yourself to a different realm (I must also say that it is a matter of choice on that count 😌).

After having finished the meditation, people were regulated to pay their obeisance. After finishing the rituals we were about to leave when the confusion of crowd management came in. One of the volunteers asked us to move towards the main gate for the exit. As we came close to the main gate another volunteer rushed in and said, "Please move towards the back gate and not this, there is too much of crowd outside". This all was in their humble politeness. We turned again and started to move back. While doing so, we had to cross the Samadhi area again where another humble volunteer turned and asked me.. "Samadhi or Out"...

What struck me the most was as if someone were asking me...

"Do I have a purpose or am I going through a routine"

How do I look at my ultimate goal in life? 

Am I in charge or what I am doing or is it the routine in charge of me??

How have I been making my choices and am I enjoying those choices??

For me, the Samadhi has been a source of powerful energy. A belief that I carry along and for me this place symbolises Purpose in life!!

At that juncture this statement of mere two words started off a trigger ... I do not have the answers now but hopefully I will.

"Are we part of a crowd or do we have a sense of direction for ourselves??"